been going out too much. spending too much. aghhh. and the irony, i didnt even club this week.. cab fares are evil i swear!! cabs are evil!!!! food is evil!!!

i am so so so broke i think i realllly have to spend the whole of next week eating at home. good also, can spend time with the family. or rather whats left of it. ha ha.

just received my bank statement the other day. its quite scary to see the 4 digits turn to like 2 digits in less than a month. i think its time i look into the way i spend my money and..... learn to save for my moto pink rzar. hahahaa. its so cute. the functions of the v3 sucks though. but its a pink phone!!!

i am so broke.
i am so broke.
i am so broke.

i must stop shopping. below my table at work, i have three different bags of stuff that i bought but dont dare to bring home...

i want to buy the tiffany square ring.............
i want to buy the moto razr pink v3............

i should just stop wanting and start saving money huh.

so theres the sale on thursday. BUT I CANNOT GO! WHY? COS I AM BROKE!!! VERY GOOOD!!:( :( :( so bitter about it.

last night as i was sitting outside coldstorage with denise at 6am, we were talking about the christmas spirit in the air. and i said.. "i can feel the xmas spirit in the air... but im not excited about it. nothing to look forward to.." im so cynical and bitter its scary. for like the past 18 years, ive always loved xmas because everyone loves everyone and everyone is friendly, kind, gay and lovely creatures during that season! and also not to forget my birthday is 6 days after xmas. which means more love, more presents and more love!

but as you age...... you tend to kinda have expections for "special" days (maybe its just me) .. and in the end you get upset.. WHY LIKE THAT?? so very easy lor.. dont care about it.. just screw it and say... UP TO YOU LAH!! very simple..

so i am not doing anything "special" this year for xmas. or my birthday. there might not even be a family bbq even. :( its been a yearly thingy since 2001..... but this year no mention of it yet....... so... UP TO THEM LAH!